I am in 2nd year med proper, in a prestigious university in the Philippines, but I’m still not sure if I’m supposed to be here. Oftentimes I feel like a fish out of water. I feel like I don’t belong here. It doesn’t help that I don’t have a scholarship and I have to pay my student loans to enrol next semester. Studying medicine is hard and expensive. I don’t know what I expected when I checked that INTARMED box 4 years ago.