First day in Derma

Two more months to go and I’m done with my 2nd year of med school! Just started with our Dermatology module today with lectures and panel non-stop from 8 am to 4 pm. From the orientation, we went straight to lectures about common pathologic diseases and we even had patients from the hospital’s support club join us for a panel. I appreciate the efforts of Derma to have this panel so we could apply our learnings and learn how the diseases affect people’s lives, especially those in the marginalized sector.

I was so drained afterwards. I didn’t get to study tonight because I had to wash all my uniforms because I didn’t have money to bring my laundry to the laundry shop. Usually, our school is pretty lax with the wearing of uniforms, but Derma is strict (in general: from the time you come in, to attendance checking every class, to complete uniforms). The module is only for one week so everything is jam-packed because we have to take 3 exams by Friday morning: OSCE, module exam, and kodachrome.

My hands hurt from the washing and cleaning the condo (I had to do spring cleaning because I’m the only one left here and the whole place is a mess). I hope tomorrow will be better for me.

4 years later and still no better

I’ve been out of my funk all the years I’ve studied in med school. Walang gana since LU1. I’m scared because this is a huge no-no in med school. Sooner or later, I’ll be forced to change my attitude or get flunked. I don’t want to fail, but I really don’t feel the joy in studying all these concepts. At first I thought it was burn out, but I don’t think burn out lasts this long. I just want to graduate and have a good life. Why can’t I feel anything?